This was an intensely emotional pregnancy for me. I found out I was pregnant shortly after my son had died. I was in a grievous and mourning state. I was full of hard, raw, angry, scared emotions. So I started painting it red because I felt that color represented those feelings best. But amidst those intense feelings I was holding something beautiful growing inside me. Even though this was a difficult pregnancy, something wonderful emerged. I was holding it the entire time.